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Trey Songz

Love Lost

Reminiscing i remember me and you we used to play w/ the dogs.

while you were sleep id stare, stare while you lay in my arms

and now im stuck on stupid rain forest couldnt get wetter than you get.

I used to beat it up you gave me your love i abused it now im facing the music

Oh, how i yearn for your touch im so lonely now that you left me.

If i could run away you know i would

And im hurting cause girl i never loved you like i should

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

I was tripping wouldnt listen now im sitting sipping shots at the bar

Now im riding to the 90s hits listening to aerosmith

I dont wanna close my eyes dont wanna fall asleep

Tell me how i can i be fly without the wind beneath my wings

Oh how i yearn for your touch im so lonely now that you left me

If i could run away you know i would

And im hurting cause girl i never loved you like i should

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

And now i see

The man you need

When i look into the mirror i see change

And i close my eyes and wish you could see the same

But its too late

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

Lost gone out the window

When your love is lost

Lost cant see your love no more

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

$$$; money, money, money.

via blackberry.

This particular piece of material rules the world. & EVERYBODY is out to get it, including myself. These last couple of days have been hectic on me. Because everytime I turned around somebody is talking about how successful they are. I feel that I should be in that position. So I question myself; did I not have enough ambition, was I not working hard enough? But its really unknown. Was I even destined for greatness? TODAY: Im VOWING frm this day forward, that I'm going to be all about mine. Just so my son can live the life I never lived. This dream is for me & him. See yu at the top.

something new.

via blackberry.

Weelllll...its gonna be a secret. So dnt ask me what it is, bcuz truthfully I WILL NOT tell you. There has been a new task that has come upon my life. I've thought about it plenty of times but now I'm gonna see how it goes. Hopefully in a successful manner. I knw it won't be easy, but hey its worth a try. Bcuz like me, ppl can be stubborn. LOL. But ill look past it & keep it pushing. But just keep this in thought..."Don't be suprised if she ask where the cash at" LOL. This is funny...WELP, we'll see how it goes. *& NO, I'm not talking about hoe'n. LOL. NEVER THAT!

THE BET!

via blackberry.

So me and Jocquez made a bet for $20, that I wouldn't get on twitter for a WHOLE day. frm midnight tuesday to midnight wednesday. And yes, I did it lol. It was a lil cool experience tho. I hella wanted to just give in. On me, it felt like I was going cold turkey frm a drug, lmao. Not that serious but still it was lowkey hard. But I did it, and that fool better give me my $$$.

almost 21.

OMG, I can't believe tomorrow is my 21st birthday. I'm so excited. I knw I've been grown, but its like SUPER official now, lol. Like I've been through so much in my life. Even though I'm still going through, I thank god for bringing me this far. And I'm so glad I never gave up, even when I knew I wanted to so bad. I'm hoping and praying there are more bright & successful events to happen in my future. *happy sigh. I LOVE MY LIFE! =)

:'(
i have a really strong feeling, that its not going to work any much longer. omg, im at work right now & i really feel like breaking down & crying. but i have to hold myself together, for now. we got into a big argument last night over nothing. & through my head im thinking like should i not care, like i do? because for some reason i feel that that's holding us together. like i want to give up, BUT that might of been my problem before. like some STRONG true advise is needed right now. i love him so much, it ridiculous. like i try to do EVERYTHING i can to keep him happy as much as i can. like seriously. i changed some of my stubborn ways, hella shit. but now, i really wanna knw is it gonna pay off at the end? omg, this is hurting me so bad, thats he's not answering his phone or replying to my text. im so afraid that i might go home & all his stuff will be gone. but if so, he's a grown man, & i just hope he thought deep about his decision. & if he thinks its the right choice, then hey; cant do anything to change his mind.

well update tomorrow i guess....

deep thought.

QUESTION:
have you ever like, took some time & thought about how your life is going? sort of like a reality check to yourself.

well recently ive been thinking how my life is pretty great, but yet could be waayyy better. like IF i wouldve went to college right after i graduated. or like IF i wouldnt worry so much about things, that it'll work out easily. & IF i wouldve followed my goals, would my business have been a success by now. BUT THEN its like fck the what if's. its time to live for today & what lies ahead of me. im ready to live life like an ULTRA-RESPONSIBLE adult, that i knw indeed i can be. a life that i knw that either way, everything will be okay about me & my son. there will be no one i can blame for my mistakes & problems. it all lies on my shoulder to what i can & will become. i knw it wont be easy, or come to me fast. but im willing to work hard & wait on the perfect outcome. =)