:'(
i have a really strong feeling, that its not going to work any much longer. omg, im at work right now & i really feel like breaking down & crying. but i have to hold myself together, for now. we got into a big argument last night over nothing. & through my head im thinking like should i not care, like i do? because for some reason i feel that that's holding us together. like i want to give up, BUT that might of been my problem before. like some STRONG true advise is needed right now. i love him so much, it ridiculous. like i try to do EVERYTHING i can to keep him happy as much as i can. like seriously. i changed some of my stubborn ways, hella shit. but now, i really wanna knw is it gonna pay off at the end? omg, this is hurting me so bad, thats he's not answering his phone or replying to my text. im so afraid that i might go home & all his stuff will be gone. but if so, he's a grown man, & i just hope he thought deep about his decision. & if he thinks its the right choice, then hey; cant do anything to change his mind.

well update tomorrow i guess....