The Beginning!

I recently just bought my first pack of make up brushes. It's nothing too major, something that to just start myself off with. The cost was really reasonable, ONLY $10 for an eleven piece set. I really can't wait to use it. But I need to buy more make up first. Like for Christmas I might just stop by MAC in the mall & grab a couple of things. I need to start building up my make up box. I want it to be HUGE and filled with a numerous amount of colors. Also with that done, I could get to practice a little more on my applying skills. I want to be kind of good already before I get into school. So I wont be the DUH girl, LOL. But hopefully everything comes together soon. Like they always say, "THE SOONER THE BETTER!" =)

true quote.

Via BlackBerry.

"Some people need to make changes. They need to accept corrective guidance that leads to respect for others & positive self-esteem." -@BillCosby

legaaalll. =)

So I've been 21 since September 3rd. & at first the only joy if that was buying liquor whenever I wanted to. BUT as of this last past weekend, it has been soo fun. It was my best friends birthday & boy did we celebrate. We went to four clubs that weekend. Lavo, Cherry, Blue Martini & Aruba. I was soo faded at Cherry & Aruba. Like really feeling myself. Had guys buying me drinks. Omg, I'm really digging this life now. It feels good not seeing the same faces everytime we go out. & yu dnt have to worry about if the party is gon get shot up or not. LOL. But I really can't wait to see what else is in store. =)

Marcus Jonesss...

I just wanted to take this time out to say CONGRATULATIONS dude! & I want to wish you the best of luck in your future. You are a very intelligent young man and i really see bright and successful things happening for you. Just stay focused and dont let anything or anyone get in your way. You are taking on a great role in america, which many young men & women will look up to. & again i wish you lots of luck cuh, & i cant wait until you come back. NACHOS are going to be cracking. LOL. love ya, & ima miss you lil marki cuh. =)

new cyber love, lol.

It is really not what you are thinking. No, i dont have an online love. Well kind of, but except its a website. OMG, today i was viewing www.digslifeofthejetsetter.blogspot.com & i came across a post that was talking about vintage clothing. clicked on the link & up came something beautiful, lol. "www.shopnastygal.com" YES, i love it. mostly everything on this site is sooo cute. from the clothes down to the accessories. & above are a few things from my 'i love' list from the website. its all not vintage clothing, they have a "new" section as well. ENJOY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIA!

today my niece turned 8 years old, well more like 25. LOL. i hope she enjoys her day. my sister bought her the cutest hello kitty cupcake cake. & she's a girly girl so i know she'll love it. well HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY NIA! love you. =)

STOP THE VIOLENCE!; R.I.P. DERRION ALBERT!

this is a real serious problem going on between our people today, that needs to have a STOP put onto it ASAP. everytime we turn around, there goes another one of our black men knocked down. & there are certain people that love to see it happen. this is a movement that needs to brought upon our attention, so we can realize whats really going on in the world today. KEEP THE PEACE & PLEASE STOP THE VIOLENCE!

words from Nas...
via www.bossip.com

"Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong wars! Killing each other is definitely played out. Being hurt from the loss of a love one was never cool.

Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong war! I know that feeling, that frustration with life and needing to take it out on someone, anyone. But….

We chose the dumbest things to go the hardest for. I remember seeing deaths over 8 ball jackets, fila’s, and name plate chains. Deaths over “he say she say”!!!!! “I’m from This block or I’m from that block,” or “my moms n pops is f*cked up now the whole world gotta pay!!!”

I remember feeling like I was the hardest “n*gga” breathin. And I couldn’t wait to prove it. 
But let’s think. What r we really proving?? And proving what to who?? Everybody knows Chicago breeds the strongest of the strong but I just feel, me, being ya brother from another state, feel your pain as if I grew up with you in ya very own household.

You have the ability and mindpower to change the way we are looked at. Look who’s watching us young warriors, look who’s throwin us in jail constantly, look at the ignorance in the world. Look at the racist dogs who love to see us down. Lovin to bury us in the ground or in jail where we continue this worthless war on one another. Young warriors…. We are WASTING more and more time. We gotta get on our jobs and take over the world. Cuz this movie left the theaters years ago, Juice, Menace, Boys n the Hood, Blood n Blood Out, Belly!

When we see each other why do we see hatred? Why were we born in a storm, born soldiers, WARRIORS….and instead of building each other up we are at war with each other.. May the soul of this young person find peace with the Almighty. I’m with you young warriors. You’re me and I’m you. But trust me! You are fighting the wrong war.

This sh*t sucks !!"

-Nas

searching HARD!

OMG, the internet should be tired of my ass. LOL. Ive been searching so hard for MakeUp Artisty schools, including in California. I found a couple out there BUT the cost of living is a BITCH. Like seriously $1000 plus for a one bedroom apartment. They cant be serious. But i did get a little lucky last night when i found "James Albert School of Cosmetology" which isnt open yet. I called & they said give it another month. Im like really crossing my fingers for this one. This is something that i have become really passionate about. & one of my sister asked me a question that i think really opened my eyes to it. She said, "Would you do makeup for free?" & i replied yes. If you can honestly answer that question with a YES, then i think thats your destined dream.

via www.professionalmakeup.blogspot.com was a list of

'How To Choose A Good Makeup School'

-Look for an establishment that will offer you smaller class sizes.

-Ask them, are they using the latest techniques in training?

-Are their instructors makeup artists crurrently working in the industry?

-Do they offer a field work program?

-What are the tuition costs? Are they affordable? Can they recommend financing options?

cosmo school. =)

So ive been thinking about going to cosmetology school these last couple of days. And it seems like thats the only thing thats going to excite my working life. Like who in their right mind wants to work a regular nine to five the rest of their life, NOT I! LOL. But i lowkey wish i wouldve went to VoTech, because all of that would have been done and over with by now. SUCKS, i know. Im still young so i have the time. So come January 2010 i will be attending cosmetology school. Reason for waiting so long to start is because i dont want to just hop into anybody's school. I want to take my time & get to check out how each school looks & learns. So by the time i graduate, i feel that i have learned and hopefully beyond everything that i needed to know.

Buuuttt, there is a UGH part about it. I really dont want to do the manicure & pedicure part. Like i seriously just want to go for hair & make up. I dont know for sure, but it seems like before a photo shoot i dont think models get to get mani's & pedi's. LOL. Welp, if thats something i have to do to get closer to my dream. I guess i have to just sacrifice that time & get through what ever i need to do. Because I WILL be doing hair & make up for one of these big time magazines, and/or fashion shows in the NEAR future.

& may the lord bless me w/ the strength to follow and reach my goal to the FULLEST.

songz yuupp mood.

Trey Songz

Love Lost

Reminiscing i remember me and you we used to play w/ the dogs.

while you were sleep id stare, stare while you lay in my arms

and now im stuck on stupid rain forest couldnt get wetter than you get.

I used to beat it up you gave me your love i abused it now im facing the music

Oh, how i yearn for your touch im so lonely now that you left me.

If i could run away you know i would

And im hurting cause girl i never loved you like i should

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

I was tripping wouldnt listen now im sitting sipping shots at the bar

Now im riding to the 90s hits listening to aerosmith

I dont wanna close my eyes dont wanna fall asleep

Tell me how i can i be fly without the wind beneath my wings

Oh how i yearn for your touch im so lonely now that you left me

If i could run away you know i would

And im hurting cause girl i never loved you like i should

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

And now i see

The man you need

When i look into the mirror i see change

And i close my eyes and wish you could see the same

But its too late

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do

When your love is lost

Your whole worlds thrown off

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

Lost gone out the window

When your love is lost

Lost cant see your love no more

When the one you need dont need you

What do you do when love is lost

$$$; money, money, money.

via blackberry.

This particular piece of material rules the world. & EVERYBODY is out to get it, including myself. These last couple of days have been hectic on me. Because everytime I turned around somebody is talking about how successful they are. I feel that I should be in that position. So I question myself; did I not have enough ambition, was I not working hard enough? But its really unknown. Was I even destined for greatness? TODAY: Im VOWING frm this day forward, that I'm going to be all about mine. Just so my son can live the life I never lived. This dream is for me & him. See yu at the top.

something new.

via blackberry.

Weelllll...its gonna be a secret. So dnt ask me what it is, bcuz truthfully I WILL NOT tell you. There has been a new task that has come upon my life. I've thought about it plenty of times but now I'm gonna see how it goes. Hopefully in a successful manner. I knw it won't be easy, but hey its worth a try. Bcuz like me, ppl can be stubborn. LOL. But ill look past it & keep it pushing. But just keep this in thought..."Don't be suprised if she ask where the cash at" LOL. This is funny...WELP, we'll see how it goes. *& NO, I'm not talking about hoe'n. LOL. NEVER THAT!

THE BET!

via blackberry.

So me and Jocquez made a bet for $20, that I wouldn't get on twitter for a WHOLE day. frm midnight tuesday to midnight wednesday. And yes, I did it lol. It was a lil cool experience tho. I hella wanted to just give in. On me, it felt like I was going cold turkey frm a drug, lmao. Not that serious but still it was lowkey hard. But I did it, and that fool better give me my $$$.

almost 21.

OMG, I can't believe tomorrow is my 21st birthday. I'm so excited. I knw I've been grown, but its like SUPER official now, lol. Like I've been through so much in my life. Even though I'm still going through, I thank god for bringing me this far. And I'm so glad I never gave up, even when I knew I wanted to so bad. I'm hoping and praying there are more bright & successful events to happen in my future. *happy sigh. I LOVE MY LIFE! =)

:'(
i have a really strong feeling, that its not going to work any much longer. omg, im at work right now & i really feel like breaking down & crying. but i have to hold myself together, for now. we got into a big argument last night over nothing. & through my head im thinking like should i not care, like i do? because for some reason i feel that that's holding us together. like i want to give up, BUT that might of been my problem before. like some STRONG true advise is needed right now. i love him so much, it ridiculous. like i try to do EVERYTHING i can to keep him happy as much as i can. like seriously. i changed some of my stubborn ways, hella shit. but now, i really wanna knw is it gonna pay off at the end? omg, this is hurting me so bad, thats he's not answering his phone or replying to my text. im so afraid that i might go home & all his stuff will be gone. but if so, he's a grown man, & i just hope he thought deep about his decision. & if he thinks its the right choice, then hey; cant do anything to change his mind.

well update tomorrow i guess....

deep thought.

QUESTION:
have you ever like, took some time & thought about how your life is going? sort of like a reality check to yourself.

well recently ive been thinking how my life is pretty great, but yet could be waayyy better. like IF i wouldve went to college right after i graduated. or like IF i wouldnt worry so much about things, that it'll work out easily. & IF i wouldve followed my goals, would my business have been a success by now. BUT THEN its like fck the what if's. its time to live for today & what lies ahead of me. im ready to live life like an ULTRA-RESPONSIBLE adult, that i knw indeed i can be. a life that i knw that either way, everything will be okay about me & my son. there will be no one i can blame for my mistakes & problems. it all lies on my shoulder to what i can & will become. i knw it wont be easy, or come to me fast. but im willing to work hard & wait on the perfect outcome. =)

PRIMM weekend.

(jun27.yelle & i before the 3D ride.)

OMG, i think i had the time of my life at primm this weekend. we left friday afternoon like around 330ish. so we checked into our rooms. then got a little settled in. all we did that day was play the slots, ate & drank hella. i had 1 margarita, 2 & a half of my babes adios' & one tall margarita slushy. i was tryna get TILTED. lol. but we departed ways w/ yelle & brandyn and went back to the room for some "US". which lasted pretty long. aha.

NEXT DAAYYY..me & my babe got up & ready. saw the real bonnie & clyde car, which was super shot up. we ate & did a little shopping. then decided to get on the rides. that roller coaster was super scary. yelle lost her earring & i was shaking super hard, never again. played at the arcade like big ass kids; got on the water ride, rode the virtual roller coaster, BORING; ate again & played & drank at the slots. THEN IT WENT DOWNHILL..so babe tells me his dad needs him, so he has to leave for a couple of hours. i was so hurt & mad that i started crying like right in the middle of the casino, lol. its funny now, but i was so hurt. im like, its only our second day on the couple's getaway & he left. i hated him after that. & so i decided to go shopping to clear my mind, WHICH WORKED. you can never go wrong w/ shopping. =) he came back & super apologized & stuff. & took me to breakfast the next morning.

OVERALL my time was great MINUS when he left me. but i cant wait til next month when we go to the beach in cali. =)

<333.

if this isnt LOVE!

QUESTION: have you ever found that special someone & you thought to yourself like, this cant be real or its to good to be true. well i did =). and he became mine on Easter morning, APRIL 12, 2009. as of now, its only been 2 months. but its feels like forever (in a good way, lol). well KENNETH is his name. this man is the love of my life. he is like everything i ever wished for && everything i dreamed of. every moment with him is wonderful. he says im princess & he spoils the heck out of me, so yu knw his title is daddy LOL. we may have our ups & downs like every other relationship. but the good out weighs the bad. our understanding with each other is like unbelievable. he knows me so good, its ridiculous. im so glad we're together & cant wait to see what the future holds for us. and oh yes, im praying for the best. MR. & MRS. PRESCOTT, maybe? & yes i wanna take it there. =)